i go back to december, all the time.
Hopefully one day you'll stumble upon this and you'll realize what I've been longing to say and what I've been keeping locked up inside of me. You were the best, and the worst and most importantly, my first. The tears on my pillow, the ache in my heart, and the smiles you brought to my face came to be a lesson learned. You've made me stronger, wiser, and more cautious of love and for that, I thank you eternally. I will never forget you, even if I wanted to. You'll always have a special place in my heart. One that I will hold dearly. ♥ 12345789.

“And when I asked you how you’d been I meant I missed you more than I’ve ever missed anything before.”

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Flashlight (ft. Lux) - Syd Tha Kyd

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“My mind tells me to let you go, but my heart said no. My mind tells me that this is wrong, but your love’s too strong and now I’m caught in the middle.”
“Flashlight” - Syd

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Part of My Past - Daphne Loves Derby

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It’s hard trying to be happy for someone whom you once loved. It’s like handing another person an item you cherish the most without hesitation and saying “Here, have it. It may mean the world to me, but I’m sure you won’t hold the same meaning.

“Knowing you’re missed is almost a better feeling than being with the person missing you.”
Syd tha Kyd

“Can we still be friends?” Can anyone ever truly be friends again after a break up? You give a person your everything. In turn, they learn everything about you, every insignificant fact. But suddently they disappear. They aren’t yours anymore and you are somehow supposed to talk to them. There will be awkward pauses where the “I love you” used to go and the colorful conversations with become dull and painful. And even if years pass, you still won’t talk normally, because talking to them at all will remind you why you fell in love with them in the first place.